my definition of a 'slave' ?

i was always a little sceptical about calling 'slaves' gay males who put on leather clothes, adopted hanky codes, key chains etc and became 'sex slaves' for a night, or a few hours etc.

Fair enough, i did it myself for a time... We played out our fantasies and games, got hot & horny and always ended shooting a good load. Great sex, bottom or sub.

But, it was never enough. i tried to top - again not right. i gave it all up as a fantasy and got on with 'normality'. but the dreams kept coming back, the urge to submit, to be in bondage, and i started looking again for something i couldn't fully articulate except as the need to experience being a complete captive, prisoner, slave, chained and left in a dungeon - no sex even, just the need to feel totally at the mercy of my captor - a crack of light appeared.

i met someone who offered these things and he became my Master as i gradually became his dog slave, slowly and eagerly letting go of my ego, my self and becoming just an object of another man's pleasure, i began to conceive that a slave was not just a role i played at, but a state of mind but yes with certain physical characteristcs &attributes.

to sub or bottom, on the other hand, for me, was to play at a role, not letting go entirely; a game i played in order to be used and to achieve a fabulous ejaculation as the fantasy climaxed.

becoming a slave was different, there was no ejaculation, only the tedium of being chained and caged in isolation for hours on end, occasionally getting attention and a reward, but no climax. Just being there for my Master, being constantly horny, ready, becoming ever more submissive.

this began to turn my head around. i began to enjoy the submission and denial of self. i began to understand that what had been missing was the achievement of a reality within me and this was a beginning to fulfilling that part of me that had never fully surfaced before.

then i met another Master who provided similar facilities ...over time, the relationship has developed and i have sought to get closer to the object of my fantasy - how could i realise the dream of being a slave - fully, and yet not live-in, not be that full-time slave because i have a partner, i have to work and pay bills and meet all the usual commitments?

the answer had been growing inside me for some time ... you don't have to live the rest of your life in a dungeon, you don't have to live with your Master, you simply give something precious of yourself entirely when you can and as much of what your Master wants of you as permanently as possible.

in my case, the solution was to give 24/7 control of the male's most precious possession. i gave my cock to my master. i wanted to offer my sexuality: to give away control of my ability to ejaculate.

i have become a chastity slave: chastity

definition of a slave by Master Marc